Suicide of a friend and dreams

I dream but I wake crying,
Dad was killed in a flood,
Trying to shut off Grandma Bet's electrical box,
Aunt Lyn tries to stop me,
I become weak,
and I watch dad dying,
I wake crying at 2:00 AM,
Just a dream and still Violently I cry and rock,
for once I am thankful for grandfathers declining hearing,
I wake and dress for church,
Grandmother brings news  a dear friend Ed has shot himself at 2:00 AM
( He lives maybe 8 doors down.) 
I am silent, I am shocked,

The room at Maw Maw's

It's big,
 yet it's small,
A cozy retreat for both head and feet,
Many have bedded here,
Mother, Aunt, Cousin, and now Me!
I have added a Cozy blanket to make me feel comfy,
I have nothing to fear here,
I hold great grandmothers tiger and fall asleep,
It's big,
yet it's small,
this cozy room has seen it all,

The club

Friendships,
Precious Memories,
Laughs,
Inside Jokes,
Love,
Inspiration,
Having a Shoulder to cry on,
A game of Pegs & Jokers
Mexican Train Dominoes

Don

Sometimes the sea changes,
Sometimes it stays the same,
As you watch me I stumble and fall,
come now, How can I?
I don't know your future but I'm learning your past,
It's about time to get off the stool and ask you to dance,
But I Don't feel I can,
Brave enough to fight but not talk,
Do you ever notice me ?
All I got was a hello!
I can't ask but I can Dance



C.K.

Beyond this point lies a curse of sorts,
Nothing you would know about you were born normal,
But there are those of us born this way who always have nightmares and never sleep,
We might be okay one month ,
but scared to sleep the next,
one day we'll be fine If doctor's ever find a cure,

C.K.